Damn Nosey Luebberts
erin knows. which means, at any moment, satan could know. and if satan knows.......well, lets just say that once dad finds out *and he promised this* i get kicked out. I GET KICKED OUT OF MY HOUSE once he finds out. and that is horrible. bcuz ill be forced to live in illinois. i wont have a choice. EVERYTHING hates me right now. everything. i swear. and im not 'just being a whiny 13 year old' 1)bcuz im 16 and 2) bcuz erin knows, my dad hates me, im a total bitch, and im a horrible girlfriend.
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dad and i got into a fight last night bcuz i 'had an attitude'!!! ???WTF MATE??? lol. i mean, he's sitting there beating his feet into the ground to make the house shake and ALL I WANT TO DO IS LISTEN TO FALL OUT BOY! IS THAT SO WRONG? no. so i got angry and he tried to tell me to get off the phone with phil and i didnt want to. he had JUST gotten home. asshole. so he ALMOST said i couldnt do acting. well, i relapsed and had an episode. i started bawling. i was coughing. i even ended up throwing up. and once i finally got up off the floor, where i was curled into a ball, i called phil, secretly, and all i could do was make him sad. and honestly, i just wanted to say goodbye. and i WAS in the mood for suicide. but i called him and i decided the hospital would work, but he still freaked.
i hate myself.
thats all you need to know.
i have NO room to complain about him.....and i do........i need to complain about myself so i can make others happy. i shoudlnt worry about what i want. its about what phil wants. and i gues sim ok with that. he IS my angel, and im thankful. i owe him everything and all i can do is complain about the little things he never does. someone shoot me. if i was gone, id be the best gf ever.
-HB
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dad and i got into a fight last night bcuz i 'had an attitude'!!! ???WTF MATE??? lol. i mean, he's sitting there beating his feet into the ground to make the house shake and ALL I WANT TO DO IS LISTEN TO FALL OUT BOY! IS THAT SO WRONG? no. so i got angry and he tried to tell me to get off the phone with phil and i didnt want to. he had JUST gotten home. asshole. so he ALMOST said i couldnt do acting. well, i relapsed and had an episode. i started bawling. i was coughing. i even ended up throwing up. and once i finally got up off the floor, where i was curled into a ball, i called phil, secretly, and all i could do was make him sad. and honestly, i just wanted to say goodbye. and i WAS in the mood for suicide. but i called him and i decided the hospital would work, but he still freaked.
i hate myself.
thats all you need to know.
i have NO room to complain about him.....and i do........i need to complain about myself so i can make others happy. i shoudlnt worry about what i want. its about what phil wants. and i gues sim ok with that. he IS my angel, and im thankful. i owe him everything and all i can do is complain about the little things he never does. someone shoot me. if i was gone, id be the best gf ever.
-HB
1 Comments:
Damn your dad! wtf you should be able to do what ever you want, especially if its listening to fall out boy and talking on the phone! Well just keep talking to phil, cause it seems that hes keeping it together, thank you phil.
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