Month

it's been a month since tyler died. and i hate this day. i feel so happy but i feel like i should feel bad. i miss tyler like crazy and i wish he was here for xmas. i always thought that he would love xmas. he never talked about holidays. derek's being a dork over his gift. silly loser. im glad he had a good xmas. im hoping mom got me a dessert lotion or perfume thing for xmas but i dont think she did. ive made a list of cds i want. and ill cross them thru if i got them. i hope i get them tho. ill have to buy them with my money. tomorrow's my last day with nana before i leave. drving to pamida today. omaha tomorrow. seeing kirby tomorrow. i g2g tho. loves *derek, there'll be a draft to read later on, idk when tho* love you phil