Oh Man

oh man

this is the first mall trip in 11 months that ill take without phil joining me.

i bet he doesnt care.

but i do.

i cried last night. alot. and listened to Basement Ghost Singing on repeat. like i said i would. i refuse to eat. i refuse to smile. i refuse to put my chin up. derek and claire think i need to stay single. derek thinks he wont change.

i thought i knew who i was gonna spend the rest of my life with

::i havent felt more shitty since tyler died. i dont like this::

i sang a song to you thru the floor, to reach you upstairs, i thought i heard you call out for more, i know thats crazy