Perfection

i didnt think two people could be more perfect for each other. the hurt, the past, the loves, the.....just fuck it. no matter how much i push and push and get my hopes up, it wont work. i give up ok?
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tanner and i are kinda....well...over before anything began. mike is an ass. but i still feel bad. and lately, every FUCKING emotion im stuck with is over run by jealousy. and frustraton. i feel so numb and dead. i fucking hate this. FUCK. ya know? i hate how people think that ur stupid for feeling a certain way about certain things and all ur fucking doing is caring. wtf? i think ill decorate my leg tonight....while i lay awake crying. im sure ill be ok.