Dont Know

i dont know what to post about but i feel a strong urge to post. nana bought me queen anne's dark chocolate cordial cherries. omfg i like, orgasmed when i ate them. ive only had two, but they're fucking awesome. chips and hot dogs for dinner tonight. yum? i guess. i drove to pamida. but, when i pulled the truck out of the side-thing of the house i hit the bumper on the wood pole. *makes embarassed face* i hope she doesnt tell dad. id never drive again. i did really well otherwise. i pulled into the parking space perfectly and everything. i got a new hoodie HELL FUCKING YEAH. it's a zip-up tho. :( zip ups tend to fold over in large curly bump things and it gets annoying. oh well. it's dark ash grey with a red hood. it's got a metal spade on the breast and a large one on the back and says Custom Choppers and its cool. only 17 bucks. the one i wanted was twenty and was exactly the same but without the zipper. i felt bad about having nana buy it so i got the cheaper one. she bought me an Anne Rice book for 6 bucks. it's semi-interesting. i wanted A Childs Guild to Crime : a novel for 4 bucks but i got anne rice instead. man is my book collection growing. i wonder how much im getting paid? prolly onlyy 20. but the 50 i thought id have is now reduced to 25. plus the 20 i think nana's paying is only 45. less money then i would have had in the first place. its worth it. YOU BETTER LIKE YOUR MOVIE DEREK. OR ELSE. lmao. or else ill beat you up. and, whatever ur sending me, does my letter come with it? hmmmmmmmmmmmmmm? >:| lmao. j/p. dinners ready. brb. back. ew. hot dogs. chips. cream soda. soda was ok. but nana and bob were arguing the whole time and i was crying alittle. i miss tyler so much. im hearting those who rock girl pants. aka CAM. lol. jess is talking to me. and i talked to jord and toria a little while ago. once im done posting im gonna watch down with love but im waiting. idk what for. but i am. i wish phil would get online. and i need to find out when SAINT BONG-HITZ is coming over tomorrow since i have to go to omaha. it's get up, eat, get dressed, omaha, communiun *for nana*, kirby, therapist, bed, and then wake up. lol. somewhere in there i have to eat. but, omg, one more day. my whole winter break is gonna be wasted. not once will i be able to smoke my ass off unless raymond doesnt hate me and is willing to split the cost of an ounce or two. i need to not smoke. i mean, i hardly do it, but i need to stop. there's atleast two ppl who wouldnt date me bcuz of it. except, well, one of them is dating me but he doesnt like it. if everybody tried it once, atleast they wouldnt hate it so much. i mean, you cant have a bummer unless its laced. which i would give ANYTHING to try. weed laced with either pcp, dust, lcd, acid or smack. lol. i know that sounds bad and derek is prolly shaking his head and wagging his finger at me, but hey, can you blame me? nope. poor binx. her and i need a day at a spa and a night with a bag of weed and cream soda. her and i are so much alike, its uncanny.
Because you stay with me, maybe, because you're as crazy as I am
Cuz when I look at you I can see an angel in your eyes
But if I look deeper inside I see your freakish little side.
Like a devil in disguise,
You're always full of surprises
mmm, rap lyrics. fun no? almost bought gc-life and death today. but didnt. tim would kill me. but nana said no to a cd. and they had chevelle. grrr. i really want that cd. there's chips in my teeth! wtf? im trying to login to buddypic. i found branden's new pic and its so friggin cute. he's such a doll. he loves having his picture taken, i know it. i hate number 15 now. except the chorus. the chorus reminds me of me. i put it in a draft. nobody will ever read that draft except derek. i never thought id find, someone to be mine, lord knows i was right, cuz you jsut crossed the line. my pos font thing doesnt work in bold, only italics. so yeah, im gonna go since im really busy. i love you phil. miss you derek. love you binxy!

-Hugs and Knives, Kisses and Cuts-