Dearest Callen
first things first: Ian is VERY precious to me. and if you have a problem with him being my best friend, well fuck you.
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Things change callen, people change, i changed. and then you try to change yourself to fit my kinda guy, wtf? then id be loving who i THOUGHT you were. i wouldnt be loving you at all. i do love you. and i care for you. but like i said, im not IN LOVE with you. sure, i decided at the last minute to go to the fair, big fucking deal. if you wanted me to go, maybe you should have called incase i changed my mind, god knows i do it all the time. there was so many little things i dont like about you tho. the fact that i couldnt go to a party and drink or smoke pissed me off. you were so god damn protective. i mean, thats not protective, thats obssesive. the scary kind. i mean, ian thought 'I' was obssessed. lmao. i couldnt get a tattoo without you being there, trying to stab out every guy's eyes bcuz he could see a little bit of skin. and youd also be wincing cuz you cant stand pain at all. date this mariah bitch. i dont care really. altho, im sure she couldnt hold a candle to me in every fucking way except 'that mommy loves her and she'll treat you nice' as if i was a bitch to you 24/7. i mean, all you could fucking talk about is this video game, that mudvayne song, this video game, that mudvayne guy. thats your whole fucking life. i hope this mariah chick is as churchy as you are. lol. now that ive been with you, you're gonna be trying to get her in bed and shit. lmao. omg. callen. you really need to let go. ok? im not some goddess or gueen. im a low life piece of shit. we both know it. i mean, im not even eye candy, let alone someone you wanna spend five minutes/or a life time with. which reminds me. did you REALLY expect us to date forever? honestly? bcuz i didnt. sure, it sounded sweet and romantic and right at the time, but, it just didnt work out. yes, ill admit, i went to ian's mostly to avoid you. i dont think i can face you callen. if we went to the movies, you'd be all over me and then sad bcuz i wont kiss you and then you'll cry and expect me to feel sorry for you and go abck out with you. and i wont do that. period. i miss you. and, i miss eating chinese with you, and walking to the restraunt, and movies, ill admit that. i do miss you. but im moving on, jsut like you should. besides, we werent dating so i dont see how many promises i broke. ok. i dont need this. and i shouldnt even be reading your blog. my life is complicated enough with ian and trevor and david *different one s.d. not you, he's a senior*. i mean, me and ian are complicated enough to confuse even a fucking genius. trevor.....well he's trevor.....and david, ive yet to talk to him much. lol. you'll probably be happier with mariah. but im not going to think about any of this. period. at all. bcuz ian creates enough problems for me *kidding sweety, you know i love you* i love you callen. i always will, and if you ned to talk you know my number. please move on.
Sincerely,
Brittni
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Things change callen, people change, i changed. and then you try to change yourself to fit my kinda guy, wtf? then id be loving who i THOUGHT you were. i wouldnt be loving you at all. i do love you. and i care for you. but like i said, im not IN LOVE with you. sure, i decided at the last minute to go to the fair, big fucking deal. if you wanted me to go, maybe you should have called incase i changed my mind, god knows i do it all the time. there was so many little things i dont like about you tho. the fact that i couldnt go to a party and drink or smoke pissed me off. you were so god damn protective. i mean, thats not protective, thats obssesive. the scary kind. i mean, ian thought 'I' was obssessed. lmao. i couldnt get a tattoo without you being there, trying to stab out every guy's eyes bcuz he could see a little bit of skin. and youd also be wincing cuz you cant stand pain at all. date this mariah bitch. i dont care really. altho, im sure she couldnt hold a candle to me in every fucking way except 'that mommy loves her and she'll treat you nice' as if i was a bitch to you 24/7. i mean, all you could fucking talk about is this video game, that mudvayne song, this video game, that mudvayne guy. thats your whole fucking life. i hope this mariah chick is as churchy as you are. lol. now that ive been with you, you're gonna be trying to get her in bed and shit. lmao. omg. callen. you really need to let go. ok? im not some goddess or gueen. im a low life piece of shit. we both know it. i mean, im not even eye candy, let alone someone you wanna spend five minutes/or a life time with. which reminds me. did you REALLY expect us to date forever? honestly? bcuz i didnt. sure, it sounded sweet and romantic and right at the time, but, it just didnt work out. yes, ill admit, i went to ian's mostly to avoid you. i dont think i can face you callen. if we went to the movies, you'd be all over me and then sad bcuz i wont kiss you and then you'll cry and expect me to feel sorry for you and go abck out with you. and i wont do that. period. i miss you. and, i miss eating chinese with you, and walking to the restraunt, and movies, ill admit that. i do miss you. but im moving on, jsut like you should. besides, we werent dating so i dont see how many promises i broke. ok. i dont need this. and i shouldnt even be reading your blog. my life is complicated enough with ian and trevor and david *different one s.d. not you, he's a senior*. i mean, me and ian are complicated enough to confuse even a fucking genius. trevor.....well he's trevor.....and david, ive yet to talk to him much. lol. you'll probably be happier with mariah. but im not going to think about any of this. period. at all. bcuz ian creates enough problems for me *kidding sweety, you know i love you* i love you callen. i always will, and if you ned to talk you know my number. please move on.
Sincerely,
Brittni
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