Amigos

i just spent the last three hours of my life at amigos. how fun? not really. lol. im TRYING to re-convince dad to go to the teddy bear toss. or else another LOST chance to see brian. and nikki wants me to go to. woot and what have you. hung out with brett againt today. it was fun. lanney was shadowing ash and i, along with some michelle girl. i dont like her. oh well. then bret was looking for me. lol. oops. fucking admin. having trouble covering up my scars/cuts. they're not much of either right now. grrrr. brett's cool tho. he made my day better since ive been down lately. got a seat on the bus on the way home. i was abused by nate petro tho. smack,poke,punch,smack,poke,poke,poke,smack,punch. it hurted. everybody's doing something tonight but my gay dad wants to sleep. soo......TAKEOUT AND A MOVIE BITCHES. either the terminal OOOORRRRRR eternal sunshine. im in the mood to cry. then again, im also very very horny. three months, wait, four months without sex will really eat away at you. brett is suposed to call, IF he can find a fone. damn poor airpark ppl. get a fucking fone so we can talk. lol. going to airpark with ellen, liz, brett, and katie sometime next week. phil ahsbt called at all today, i really miss him. i miss my baby. damnit. i want to fucking strangle his mom with a god damn fishing line. so it gets so tight it slices thru her neck. dumbbitch. fuck. lol. sat with angel during lunch. read about food from martinique after my quiz in french. im doing more homework. enjoying it a little. idk. slowly. ill get beter grades. start with geo, his, and fre. lol. geometry, history and french. then english, then science. still kidna doing science tho. french was hilarious. alyssa and i are becomign closer. i rubbed powdered sulfer on my skin in science. and then smelled my hand an hour later. HOLY SHIT IT SMELLED SO HORRIBLE AND I WAS HACKIGN AND COUGHING. LOL. man it was great. mandi stole jeremy's wallet in photography and then he tackled her so she threw it to me, he chased me around the darkroom and then tackled me. lol. he smelled funny. like cigarettes, coffee and sex. idk. weird eh? but it was fun. gonna make me a samich of me and branden both wearing our fender shirts. WOOPA. lol. itll be soooooper. lol. kinda happy. gonna call alyssa soon. fell asleep watching a movie on buddhism in history. didnt wake up until 5 min before the end of class. english is really weird. aarons till wontt alk to me. manwell is so fucking stupid too. dumbass. he would NOT let me read my book and i was really into it which is why im sad i left it at school. :( the notebook. i still wanna see it with phil. ^.^ so anyways. im waiting for dad to get home from looking for mike so we can get mon din'er. woot woot wootamos. man, those were good times eh matt? he prolly pissed at me for the post about hunting on his blog. oh well. idc. ive got freinds. and those who really love me wouldnt care that im sensitive about my veiws and opinions and wouldnt hate me or be mad, so if you are matt, or stina, idgra. ok? i dont wanna hear it. mike sleeps in the basement now till we paint the room for me to move in. HELLS YEAH. but i like his mattress. i hope he stays the night with moe tonight so i can sleep on it. mmmmmmmmmm. so pillowy and nice. it makes me happy that nikki wanted me to hang out with ehr at the game. she's cool. and nice. mandi's the one whos kinda bitchy. SHIT. i forgot to sign up for secret santa with french club. fuck fuck fuck. ill try emailing madame heminger for it. ill prolly end up with the fat ugly freshman. gah. i might not take french next semester. which sux. or next year. how gay is that? thank god lps offers latin. i wish i could jsut go to lsw or lse but NOOOOO dad has to be a jackass. SOMEDAY, im gonna sneak out and take the truck and drive to phil's and snog him all ngiht. lol. in the truck. WOOOHOOOO. lol.....so. im gonan go now. eat, watch movies and be alone. oh and call brian to say my dad's a jackass so we have to wait till thursday. damn him. ttyl. loves. bye everyone.

I <3 PHIL