You're A God

life is picking up. i left the funeral early yesterday after sharing and re-living memories and i cried and then a wave of shock kinda, hit me and i realised, i was here for one of my best friends and it hurt so bad. i was too shocked to cry. i couldnt feel any emotion for a few hours. i hate this. tyler is not dead, he's hiding. i swear. i miss him.
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i miss phil. im HOPEFULLY going to see him tonight is dad isnt being an anal jerkoff. i miss him like, idk, like the, hmmmm, well, im filled with depressedosity. and missingosity. im so gonna kiss him like crazy. lol. im ALREADY getting ready and idk when im leavign. *go on bursh yo shouldas off, this is crazie baby don foget that boy told ya, get that dirt off ya shoulda* lol. mmm. jzlp. lol. lpjz. idk. but im happier in the thoughts of seeing phil. lol. im so happy that mike and i are talking. its sooooooooooo bon that he's aiming me more. greatnessosity. i love him. i wish i had a cat like angus. yes, im reading georgia's diaries again. stina....HELLS YEAH. LOL. i think you're the one who read them too. idk. *big pimpin* lol. i feel hyped up. mike's friend moises just gave me an UBER wedgie. it hurt so bad. but, i g2g and clean and shit. i love phil. thanks to those of you who have been helping me thru tyler's death. i still wanna die but you guys help more then you'll ever know.