gone

grrrr. pos internet has to type all fucking slow. i had to file and paint nana's toenails today. miss tyler. wont see kirby tomorrow. leave tomorrow at noon. pos father wont let me see kirby. cut myself again. i fucking hate when i do that. hopefully kirby doesnt find out or im screwed. majorly. they are deep as fuck and wont stop bleeding either. its really bad and im really scared and crying my eyes out. im sleeping downstairs tonight. maybe. idk. as long as i can cry. idk. dad keeps emailing me and nana's hotmail service is slow. cant he IM me? grrr. g2g. loves. ttyl