Angst

i feel like a total shithead. honestly. i do. even tho i prolly shouldnt to some degree. i feel bad, i should have called callen today. and yesterday. but i should be able to hang out with friends. idk. im really confused on how to feel right about now. i do know, that at this moment, im ready to cry. callen isnt happy. at all. and he wont say why *i know he knows* and he wont talk about anything else.
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i hardly spoke with derek today. hopefully hell be on early tomorrow since i have to babysit. but, hes back and i got to talk to him so im ok till tomorrow.
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donnie is very sweet and caring. he didnt make a move on me or try anything funny. im very happy for that. especially being afraid for the sake of my body bcuz of brandon *whom i think could end up raping me if i dont get help soon* and shit like that. donnie offered to help and so did matt. and callen. so idk who to go to. donnie's got the buil, matt's got the anger and callen's got the care and respect.
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g2g to bed. wwtomorrow. loves
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.Brittni.