Last Nite

i stayed the night with ashley last nite. hung out with jeff and mark (old friends) and some other random guys i dont like. jeff and mark are so cool tho. it was so much fun. im running on very very minimal sleep. im so very tired. and hungry. i want to eat an egg. on toast. or maybe, burger king chicken samich.
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derek and i talked today. and it was very personal. i was crying and what have you and he listened and told me not to cry. it was very sweet. i feel bad for him having to see me cry. i prolly ruined every chance of meeting him.
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ive been thinking about life a lot lately. i cant remember most things but some have amde me cry. i think its just a relaly bad bipolar episode and if it wasnt for des moines this weekend id be in caps for a few days. callen and mark wouldnt like that. either would derek. he might miss me.
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i ahve nothing else to say. bye