The sound of my tears escaping my eyes

i hate this. you're so far away. you're so alone.
i hate this. im so far away. im so alone.
ill just ignore the searing pain in my heart.
ignore the longing, and the hope.
the hope she created, that you shattered.
all i wanted was to be yours
you to be mine.
all i wanted was my name across your heart.
instead i sit alone in this chair
at my computer screen
crying myself to sleep at ngihts
and dreaming of you next to me.
.
dedicated to derek.
bcuz lately ive been crying over him.
we all know why,
we all know how my heart broke that summer.
we all know, that im unfortunate.