Wait by Earshot
my topics will now be my current music. since earshot rocks. now, read these lyrics and THEN read the post ok? cuz the lyrics fucking rock!
Something's wrong,
Trying to conquer these fears i thought were gone.
And it's been so long, I'm dying to live in a world i dont belong
I cant wait for someone to hear me,
And wait for someone to touch me.
And wait forever to be told,
I'm forever alone.
I cant wait for someone to feel me,
And wait for someone to heal me.
And wait forever to be told,
I'm forever alone..
On my own,
I'll show myself what it means to be alone.
And the tears i cry are washed away.
All the scars are my disguise.
I cant wait for someone to hear me,
And wait for someone to touch me.
And wait forever to be told,
I'm forever alone.
I cant wait for someone to feel me,
And wait for someone to heal me.
And wait forever to be told,
Im forever alone..
I'm forever alone.
I'm forever alone.
I'm forever alone.
I, I'm not waiting here this time.
I can't wait for someone to hear me.
And wait for someone to touch me
And wait forever to be told,
I'm forever alone.
I cant wait for someone to feel me
And wait for someone to heal me
And wait forever to be told
I'm forever alone.
.
my brithday was so fucking awesome. even tho the best part also made me cry :( but im happy. brittni is now the epitome of coolness. i have a bass guitar AND an eletric guitar. how awesome is that? dad bought me Dessert kissable lip plumping lipgloss by Jessica Simpson in Slide. and a bass guitar. sure, its a walmart bass, BUT ITS A GOD DAMN A BASS YOU JACKASSES. lol. i love it to death. dad lifted it when i was playing it and said it was heavy, i looked at him like he had NO capacity for thought period. lol. it's double cut, dumbass. oh well. lol. derek got me the CUTEST necklace. it's pretty, and delicate, but also black and kinda gothy like. so it'll match almost enything i wear, unless i go raver-bright clothes or skater. i'm gonna wear it to my nana's on turkey day and show it off. liz fast got me a six pack of earrings, so cute. i have a necklace from secret-santa last year from michelle that matches one of the pairs of earrigns. sabrina forgot her gifts. tim gave me three old AFI cds. now i can brag to jeremy. lmao. HAHA JEREMY, NOW I CAN LOVE CLASSIC AFI TOO! lol. phil, omg. lol. he got me a Jim Morrison info picture. like the ones at the mall. omg. lol. i always thought those thigns are expensive. lmao. AND a labyrinth poster, lol. it's so cute. my room is uber decorated now. i feel kinda bad tho, cuz, im moving rooms in about a month or two. omg. that's so awesome tho. mom got me a journal set, matching journal pens, from hell dvd **FUCKING SWEET BITCHES** the seether disclaimer II cd. sveet. and, umm, some lipgloss. binx and i are discussing brit-pop and brit-rock. lmao. and skindred. and earshot. skindred, omg. so good. it's like, jamaican-punk-hiphop-rock. lol. and earshot is awesome too. cuz, like, idk, but i like their song wait. mom almost bought me the skindred cd but she said she'd get it for xmas. i told her not to bother.
.
i met derek today. once again, the GREATEST birthday gift right? it was. sure, i spent 45 minutes wondering around the mall, AND wandering in and out of consciousness. lol. fianlly decided it was ok to use my mom's work phone and called his mom's cell and he had already headed to the richy mall southpointe. so they headed back and met me at dairy queen at westfield. i was sitting there, daydreaming, wont tell you WHAT i was daydreaming tho. lol. i was watching this poor, little asian lady try to tame her ungrateful pos kid. lol. she was carrying him with one arm and so he was slipping and his shirt was half off his tummy and he was kicking and screaming and hitting her in the face. and i was feeling pity for her. and then HEY! and there's derek sexy face in mine. lol. he had this adorable little blue gift bag. lol. we talked, i opend the gift *the cute necklace with matching earrings* and we talked about my mom, and she called. she arrived and went to buy me a punkin pie blizzard. his mom took pics. and then we sat down. i took a pic of derek, i WAS gonna get one of his mom too, but, she said no. i wasnt gonna argue. lol. we talked. i cant believe im gonna say this, BUT, i was afraid to make somplete eye contact with him. each time i did, id look away fast and my fack would be all red and warm. lol. he looks soooooooooooooooooooooooooooo cute in that shirt too. his ireland shirt. its my fave of all the ones ive seen. i wanted to die. lol. im sry if ur reading this derek, but, you know how messed up my head is. i ALMOST wore my yummy flavored lipgloss. thought better of it. ya know? sigh. i got a pic of him. and mom got a pic of us sitting down. and of me eating ice cream. i like derek's mom. she's a sweetheart. she lughs weird tho. lol. i kidna wanted to meet his brother. lol. pius DID beat mccook. and im SOOOO MAD. lol. this is the first game that the players from mcook have lost since eighth grade. i wanted mccook to win. damnit. FUCK PIUS. i still love ya phil. lol. then we headed off cuz the rest of the hooligands called kids were in his mom's van so we left and i waved bye. sow, here's the one bad part. the whole way home i was talking to my mom and she was asking me if i liked him, and why and if id ever date him. then she asked me if he likes me. i stopped. i looked at her. and i cried. lol. a couple of those silent tears that fall when you realise that something has been brought up that makes you feel really weak. **derek, DONT feel bad or ill, idk, ill drive over there and, idk, throw beans at you. lol. jsut, plz dont feel bad, its not ur fault** but, i just, silently cried for a minute. mom pulled over and goes, 'sis, wuts wrong?' and i told her about him being gay. and she pulled up my chin and looked me stright in the eye and said these exact words "the greatest man ever, the one who will steal your heart and you will never forget, the one who you could be with forever till he's old and grey and still find him sexy, the perfect guy, is always gay. you'll find someone like him, never exactly, but someone who resembles him, someday" and we went to walmart and she bought me some hemp. lol. then i got home and watch some cartoons, cried and ate taco dip with tortilla chips. lol. im already in my pjs. im starting to get pissed. horny random men will IM me with my sn from bp and ask me to get naked and then wont go away. grrrrrrrrrr. and martin, gah. i was proud of him, i guess hes still been smoking. fucker. lol. i cant wait to upload my pic of derek tho. lol. i only got one :(. i was more focused on trying not to stare. i mean, such sexy men are rare. and im gonne regret this post.
.
skindred -
My sound we come to take over
M.C. you better look over your shoulder
Yea we know we on and on,Oh well now
Skindred we in ah you area
Bring the raucous you know we superior
yer you know we on and on
Nobody gets out of dis ya pit alive
Nobody no body gets out alive
Nobody gets out of dis ya pit alive
Nobody no body gets out alive
Nobody gets out of dis ya pit alive
Come on follow me 1 and 2 and 6 and 7 and 43 and
Nobody gets out of dis ya pit alive
Something's wrong,
Trying to conquer these fears i thought were gone.
And it's been so long, I'm dying to live in a world i dont belong
I cant wait for someone to hear me,
And wait for someone to touch me.
And wait forever to be told,
I'm forever alone.
I cant wait for someone to feel me,
And wait for someone to heal me.
And wait forever to be told,
I'm forever alone..
On my own,
I'll show myself what it means to be alone.
And the tears i cry are washed away.
All the scars are my disguise.
I cant wait for someone to hear me,
And wait for someone to touch me.
And wait forever to be told,
I'm forever alone.
I cant wait for someone to feel me,
And wait for someone to heal me.
And wait forever to be told,
Im forever alone..
I'm forever alone.
I'm forever alone.
I'm forever alone.
I, I'm not waiting here this time.
I can't wait for someone to hear me.
And wait for someone to touch me
And wait forever to be told,
I'm forever alone.
I cant wait for someone to feel me
And wait for someone to heal me
And wait forever to be told
I'm forever alone.
.
my brithday was so fucking awesome. even tho the best part also made me cry :( but im happy. brittni is now the epitome of coolness. i have a bass guitar AND an eletric guitar. how awesome is that? dad bought me Dessert kissable lip plumping lipgloss by Jessica Simpson in Slide. and a bass guitar. sure, its a walmart bass, BUT ITS A GOD DAMN A BASS YOU JACKASSES. lol. i love it to death. dad lifted it when i was playing it and said it was heavy, i looked at him like he had NO capacity for thought period. lol. it's double cut, dumbass. oh well. lol. derek got me the CUTEST necklace. it's pretty, and delicate, but also black and kinda gothy like. so it'll match almost enything i wear, unless i go raver-bright clothes or skater. i'm gonna wear it to my nana's on turkey day and show it off. liz fast got me a six pack of earrings, so cute. i have a necklace from secret-santa last year from michelle that matches one of the pairs of earrigns. sabrina forgot her gifts. tim gave me three old AFI cds. now i can brag to jeremy. lmao. HAHA JEREMY, NOW I CAN LOVE CLASSIC AFI TOO! lol. phil, omg. lol. he got me a Jim Morrison info picture. like the ones at the mall. omg. lol. i always thought those thigns are expensive. lmao. AND a labyrinth poster, lol. it's so cute. my room is uber decorated now. i feel kinda bad tho, cuz, im moving rooms in about a month or two. omg. that's so awesome tho. mom got me a journal set, matching journal pens, from hell dvd **FUCKING SWEET BITCHES** the seether disclaimer II cd. sveet. and, umm, some lipgloss. binx and i are discussing brit-pop and brit-rock. lmao. and skindred. and earshot. skindred, omg. so good. it's like, jamaican-punk-hiphop-rock. lol. and earshot is awesome too. cuz, like, idk, but i like their song wait. mom almost bought me the skindred cd but she said she'd get it for xmas. i told her not to bother.
.
i met derek today. once again, the GREATEST birthday gift right? it was. sure, i spent 45 minutes wondering around the mall, AND wandering in and out of consciousness. lol. fianlly decided it was ok to use my mom's work phone and called his mom's cell and he had already headed to the richy mall southpointe. so they headed back and met me at dairy queen at westfield. i was sitting there, daydreaming, wont tell you WHAT i was daydreaming tho. lol. i was watching this poor, little asian lady try to tame her ungrateful pos kid. lol. she was carrying him with one arm and so he was slipping and his shirt was half off his tummy and he was kicking and screaming and hitting her in the face. and i was feeling pity for her. and then HEY! and there's derek sexy face in mine. lol. he had this adorable little blue gift bag. lol. we talked, i opend the gift *the cute necklace with matching earrings* and we talked about my mom, and she called. she arrived and went to buy me a punkin pie blizzard. his mom took pics. and then we sat down. i took a pic of derek, i WAS gonna get one of his mom too, but, she said no. i wasnt gonna argue. lol. we talked. i cant believe im gonna say this, BUT, i was afraid to make somplete eye contact with him. each time i did, id look away fast and my fack would be all red and warm. lol. he looks soooooooooooooooooooooooooooo cute in that shirt too. his ireland shirt. its my fave of all the ones ive seen. i wanted to die. lol. im sry if ur reading this derek, but, you know how messed up my head is. i ALMOST wore my yummy flavored lipgloss. thought better of it. ya know? sigh. i got a pic of him. and mom got a pic of us sitting down. and of me eating ice cream. i like derek's mom. she's a sweetheart. she lughs weird tho. lol. i kidna wanted to meet his brother. lol. pius DID beat mccook. and im SOOOO MAD. lol. this is the first game that the players from mcook have lost since eighth grade. i wanted mccook to win. damnit. FUCK PIUS. i still love ya phil. lol. then we headed off cuz the rest of the hooligands called kids were in his mom's van so we left and i waved bye. sow, here's the one bad part. the whole way home i was talking to my mom and she was asking me if i liked him, and why and if id ever date him. then she asked me if he likes me. i stopped. i looked at her. and i cried. lol. a couple of those silent tears that fall when you realise that something has been brought up that makes you feel really weak. **derek, DONT feel bad or ill, idk, ill drive over there and, idk, throw beans at you. lol. jsut, plz dont feel bad, its not ur fault** but, i just, silently cried for a minute. mom pulled over and goes, 'sis, wuts wrong?' and i told her about him being gay. and she pulled up my chin and looked me stright in the eye and said these exact words "the greatest man ever, the one who will steal your heart and you will never forget, the one who you could be with forever till he's old and grey and still find him sexy, the perfect guy, is always gay. you'll find someone like him, never exactly, but someone who resembles him, someday" and we went to walmart and she bought me some hemp. lol. then i got home and watch some cartoons, cried and ate taco dip with tortilla chips. lol. im already in my pjs. im starting to get pissed. horny random men will IM me with my sn from bp and ask me to get naked and then wont go away. grrrrrrrrrr. and martin, gah. i was proud of him, i guess hes still been smoking. fucker. lol. i cant wait to upload my pic of derek tho. lol. i only got one :(. i was more focused on trying not to stare. i mean, such sexy men are rare. and im gonne regret this post.
.
skindred -
My sound we come to take over
M.C. you better look over your shoulder
Yea we know we on and on,Oh well now
Skindred we in ah you area
Bring the raucous you know we superior
yer you know we on and on
Nobody gets out of dis ya pit alive
Nobody no body gets out alive
Nobody gets out of dis ya pit alive
Nobody no body gets out alive
Nobody gets out of dis ya pit alive
Come on follow me 1 and 2 and 6 and 7 and 43 and
Nobody gets out of dis ya pit alive
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