Love Letters

Im a genius. I figured out a way to make sure my baby doesnt go crazy while im with my nana and such. and i think ill do this for a while. even after i come home. i hope he likes it. callen, i wont tell you what it is so dont even ask. its bad enough i cant keep myself from talking about it. i leave saturday night. im thinking about packing tomorrow. instead of during the day saturday. i need dad to buy me a prtable cd player. i have batteries. i might not blog those few days but ill try.

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DOMO ARIGATO MR ROBOTO. i love that song. too bad i dont have kazaa anymore. damnit. i want that song so bad. and memory by sugarcult. Ive been playing Zuma alot lately. i have to sign off of aim tho cuz the popup things always mess up my game and make me lose. and i cant lose. im trying to reach the sungod level and i always lose at eagle. damnit. damnit all. im trying to download kazaalite but these people want money. HELL NO. dad still needs to pre-order fable like he said he would. and martin: i still need the title to those cds if you plan to have me buy em.

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do you like my center markings? i think they're cute. dont you? i love em. they're so adorable. callen and i are making a movie. for the MON (middle of nowhere) competition. nebraska independent films program or something. it has to be a horror tho. which is gonna be hard. a drama would be easier. i guess it doesnt have to be shit-ur-pants scary but still, i dont want to do a cheesy indifilm scary movie that looks like michael jackson's thriller. a black and white movie would do well. unless i shot it with the writings on the wall idea callen had and made the blood show up red but everything else (including red shirts cuz that would be too m night shyamalan) would be black and white. it'll be easy to edit, and add credits that'll take three days, but, i want the plot done today, script tomorrow and filming the next few days. otherwise we wont make it, i also need a day to send it in. it only has to be three minutes but im looking to see if there's anymore film competitions coming up instead. its gonna hard to make a three minute movie in ten days along with putting it on vhs and sending it. idk. but if you have any story or plot ideas, PLEASE TELL ME.

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i really hate where my computer is located. it pisses me off. im always scared of seeing bugs are spiders there or looking behind me. atleast no one can be behind me, like dad,a nd read what im writing. i have time to block and cover. lol.

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derek. i needs help again. with pictures and i need a tagboard. im gonna fix the links today but i cant figure out pictures at all and im really lost. HELP. again. please. lol. that made me think of dr dolittle. rub my butt, please rub my butt, please, just rub my butt. lol. and, if you've ever seen along came polly, if i girls likes to be spanked, do it hard, not a pathetic *bop* or nothing. if she doesnt like it, dont do it at all and stick to moving your hand down her side and resting on her thigh while making out. always ask what she likes before trying out soemthing new. lol. just so you know.

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i cant wait till the trip to des moines. OMG! IM SO EXCITED. callen and i will both have headphones on and be sitting there rocking out while mike and dad chatter away. and and and the rides. YES. IM THE ONLY ONE BESIDES TONY WHO IS COOL. lol. go tony go tony. but i get to laugh at the others. dad was talkinga bout how brave and chalenging i am to ride rides like that but i cant chalenge myself to like, be the best. idk. but i am cool. itll be fun. and ill eat cotton candy and callen will laugh cuz i have sugar all over my face. and we'll laugh. callen will be relaxed around tony, i know that for sure, they're both nerds who like freakish things and relish in always being right. lol. the kids he'll get with easily. jason is another story. i just hope it doesnt turn out like it always does when callen's near my dad and such. its like he's afraid to say the wrong thing in front of my dad. or like, my dad hates him or something. i just wish he'd speak more. when we walked to the gas station he was all words but as soon as we stepped into the house again he was ....................quiet. idk. if you're bored callen, tell me, ask if there's somethign to do, or if there's something you wanna do or SOMETHING. id be happy if you complained about soemthing atleast. it makes me so self concious. idk. im so worried that somethigns wrong. but the hotel will be fun. late night swimming and kisses and talks and walking. im sooo walking around the hotel. its fun. i should brign the guitar. except, people will expect me to play something so it wouldnt be fun as it would be a task. except, im sure, if the adults were to get ahold of it, some could play it but the kids would be like.....OH LET ME PLAY LET ME PLAY and id feel bad saying no, no no no nonononononono FUCK OFF. lol. and the picnic will be awesome. half the time its oldies music, the other, chris's music which means deftones, idturbed MM and maybe even mudvayne. callen will like him, chris is big on the shitty music like mudvayne....and deftones. lol. mm, bratwurst and chips and YUMMY DESSERTS that alice makes. i hope i remember everyone's names. lol. i remember chris, alice, nick, amelia and thats it. i bet there's atleast one baby there besides catherine. jason will like callen. i know he will.

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well, im going to go now and vacuum my room and suh and whatnot. and then ill fold the blanket again and maybe even braid a hemp necklace. lord knows i havent done that in a while. im kinda looking forward to spending some time alone in my room. i wont have much of it for a while once sunday comes. make that saturday, shopping, packing, nana's, mom's, shopping, cleaning, school packing, photos, lockers, bus pass, shit like that, oh and des moines. lord knows my alone time will be limited, but, once school starts, im gonna have to push like hell to see callen. i hope dad's a little leniant about being home so i can see my baby. loves

..::Brittni::..