Today

today has reeked. i mean reeked out loud! well, idk. but i wish i knew what is going on with matt. why the fuck does he have to almost cry over this, but then act a different way when others are around? ahhhh! just pick a feeling and stick with it, please. you fucking ass. you know what? you are an ass. for confusing me. if ________ means so much to you THEN TELL ME! jesus fucking christ. fuck. i can be happy, if you stop making me cry. god. tomorrow, im calling you, and you're answering every god damn question or else ill go homicidal on your fucking ass. i swear. some people.
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i got to see claire which made everything kind of ok. she dyed her hair and its really cute. i <3 her with all my heart. personally, she is my BEST friend. over anyone else. her and i are gonna re-memorize the nsync dvd and dance it together. yay. we're gonna be pop stars later on in life. i swear. we'll bring pop abck and make it hardcore.
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talked to phil. norma convos. i made farting noises.
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aargh! CANT YOU PRETEND LIKE I MEAN SOMETHING? FUCK. i feel so used. 1) for the scrapbook and 2)bcuz i really want to believe everything he said but he probably told annie the same thing. which makes me feel so horribly ugly. gr.
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a move performed by nsync in atleast 1999 i believe in teh song space cowboy on their hbo special was made fun of on a major scale when perfomed by ashlee simpson. the hoe-down jig. they do it in the chorus, with a dance sequance used to fill in the gap from the original song with Left Eye Lopez of TLC. yeah. from nsync to ashlee. maybe she just looked plain stupid. cuz they make up for it with pelvic thrusts.
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dancing to nsync makes me forget about how baffled and depressed i am. and how much i DO care. i hate you.