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do that schfifty five



gibbs sucks, geo sucks sept for two ppl! yay, i have table partners.

i love mrs hollcroft. and we're going to london

and you can all eat shit

Mom

sorry, the last post was an email to my mom. i didnt feel like re-typing my whole day

School

school was school. extremely cool and sh*tty. good first: i ahve classes with some 'nice' boys which is a good change of scenery and they dont hate me! um, i have a class with monica, which is cool. french is as cool as it was last year, if not better. BRITISH LIT IS MY ALL TIME FAVE CLASS! lol. the teacher Mrs. Hollcroft is like nana (minus the talks about her health and the rock music obssesion) but as a teacher. and during spring break, shes taking about 10 kids to london for only 1500! IM SO EXCITED! but that means 1500 for london and 2000 for france so idk which ill do. but omg im sooo excited. but here's the bad news:

they put me in GEOMETRY AGAIN! omg i was sooo peeved about this i thought i was gonna scream. and they never sent me a pass to change it, as far as i know, i passed it but the grading scale is all sorts of messed up so im gonna test out of it and get on with adv algebra. THEN to make matters worse......yes, they can get worse then repeating yet another math class! lol.

last class of the day, Theatre Tech. UGH the teacher is a total drab and a total ass. and he FORCED us to walk along the catwalk *steel grid-like things about two feet wide about 30 to 40 feet in the air above the auditorium* and if i thought that was scary enough he forced us to walk all around teh Light-Grid. thick metal wire made into a grid/croteched type thing the holes between the wire is about 1 inch by 1 inch held together with steel squares about 8 feet by 8 feet. looking down you see the stage, about 30 to 40 feet down. scary! and i walked along shaking, holding the railing and he FORCED us to walk along it. GRRR and once we were done i was shaking in the knees and almost crying adn then my stomach hurt like i was gonna hurl. not totally pleasant. the hurling-sensation lasted for like......an hour after class ended. till i get home at 3. ugh. i hope they cahnge my schedule tomorrow.

our school has totally gone to the dogs. our vending machines are gone. and the snackshop *pop, candy, little debbies, pizza* isnt open afterschool. we are FORCED to ahve locker partners and both ppl have to pay 5 dollars to use the locker/lock. and we dont get the 2 dollars back at the end of the year like usual. WTH? and we've got thousands and thousands of dollars worth of teach stuff for theatre like sound machines, lights, about 2000 dollars worth of costumes. yet we cant afford busses for everyone or to pay the lunch ladies and the schools trying to say they're raising money to get the middle schoolers out. which doesnt help me at all. gah. oh well. im glad to be back

Xanga

that last post was posted in my xanga, so sorry if any info is repeated or if it doesnt ahve to do with you. derek, dont reply to the phil's gift thing. ill ask you about it later.

HOLY SHIT SOMEBODY JUST SPRAYED BRITNEY SPEARS 'CURIOUS' i swear bcuz i can smell it. argh

"in soviet russia, car drives you"
mm family guy

Poopy

brittni linn is so lame, she missed gatorfest ON PURPOSE for some movies, bratwurst and the vmas. b.flo looking like a women almost ruined it, but venturing downstairs to watch two mini-stories in Sin City made everything WORTH IT. i hate to say it, but elijah wood looked so awesome as a bad guy. yes.

i was suposed to go to the fair during the day today, but idk if claire can go and i would have had to work my ass off BEFORE I GO! and its already noon. wtf? and id only get 12 bucks for the entire day. so i called dad and said im not going and im just gonna get shit ready for school tomorrow.

school......school. yes. i love school. waking up at 5, eating breakfast, my locker, especially now that im close to claire and mon. and i get such kick ass classes. AND WE'RE RIGHT BY LUNCH. lol. claire was quick to point that out. omg im so excited. i know i have no classes with claire tho. which sucks. and my schedule's all rearanged so i ahve no idea what period my classes are except econ 2nd and french 5th. everybody gets sick of school after the first month......takes me a semester. lol.

41 days......till phil and i have been dating for a year.
i wonder how he'll surprise me.
**wonders**

im listening to After The Order, and it makes me so happy. it really does. except X, but the other songs are so upbeat and sweet and charming. i wish i could write such great songs. but i also wish i had written LAUNDRY GIRL. lol. but im not gonna own the old Ludo cd, im gonna own the new one. and the hoodie. so fuck you. lol. i love ATO tho, and if you dont, you can suck a railroad spike in hell.

i agree with mark, one-sentance posts suck and i can not do them. lol. soon, ill post some pics of my welts from phil, and my teacher look i had yesterday when i saw.....OMG BRANDEN POE. lol. i was quick to find him at hy-vee and i smiled at him but he looked away so when we walked away *dad and i* i looked back and he was watching me. lol. and while we were leaving i saw him wave and i waved goodbye and my dad goes 'he soooo likes you, like omg' lol. totally nerve-wrecking tho bcuz branden and i dated once and i left a guy for him. and i dont even remember why branden broke up with me, but i still ahve the drawing of kurt cobain he did for me, its framed even. and now hes datign some chick from lhs. whos very ugly, i might add. i guess nick and mike introduced them. ugh. veryday i hate mike and nick mroe and more and more. they're such dumb shitheads. they're not funny anymore and i regret dating nick in 8th grade.mmmmmm, middle school. life sucks back then. me-wise, high school is so much easier. work-wise middle school is. lol.

omg, IF YOU KNOW PHIL, PLEASE 'IM' ME OR EMAIL ME BCUZ I NEED YOUR OPINIONS FOR HIS GIFTS FOR OUR 1YEAR. plz. my new sn is BiancaXsolderini *dont ask* my email should be on my page. plzplzplz help. bcuz i think these things sound good but idk, you guys see hima ll teh damn time so plz help.

i g2g now, im hungry and ive got two movies to finish watching (hp3 and sin city) and the vmas.
I Love you all
-Brittni

p.s. hong, i think you're one of THE prettiest people ive ever seen in my life. oh if only i knew you better, id take photos of you all the time.

Des Moines and Hoobastank

my day, bcuz im lazy and exhausted and such:
-wake up at 530, shower and get ready, leave by 715
-pick up phil
-pick up nana and eat mcdonalds
-drive to des moines
-hang out on playground and in shelter with stevie
*stevie has turned geeky*
-eat food including APPLE-SNICKER SALAD! yes
-talk about daddy while hes taking mike to mom at DQ
-play volleyball
-rest and talk
-get wet
-change
-leave
-get root beer
-drive home while taking pictures
-i get beat with two pieces of licorice stuck together *the flat sides hit me* and now i have this nasty welt/bruise
-drop off nana
-get home
-let dog in
-pee
-clean dog puke
-leave to fair
-sit in traffic
-park
-get to concert
*on the way see broc kontor,and i saw matt kitrell and ty tubbs at the show*
-stand behing ty and watch hoobastank
-get sad bcuz we missed ludo
-watch hoobastank perform this one song
-watch hoobastank perfom a song that sounds exactly like the first
-after a while, we leave early
-eat fish and chips
-have snowcone
-leave
-take phil home
-drive home with dad listening to House Of Hair and it was fun and made me smile
-buy cheetos
-get home
-phil cant talk :( poor baby
-cold bath
-blog

and im about to go watch tv and rest bcuz my body is ANGRY WITH ME and im gonna cry if i keep moving.
LOVES

Brittni

p.s. anyone wanna go to kansas city on the 22nd with me.....FRANZ FERDINAND!

Depressed

im SO depressed.
claire came over to monicas after the open house at fredstrom where i saw mrs cabela, who remembered me! and we were hanging out and claire was acting silly, making us all laugh and monica took a shit load of pics of claire. i felt so left out. so im sitting here all depressed and shit. no nose piercing and i dont think i get to go to the show tomorrow. no im uber depressed and feel like crawling into a hole and dying. YAY!
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derek doesnt help.
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either does claire
or my dad.
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fuck you. fuck you i say.

Today

mo rocca looks like timmy g. HAHAHA.
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shopping today. mall, then walmart/osco. i got two shirts.....fender and a black and white kidna preppy-polo type shirt. two pairs of angel jeans. sans the back pockets. some earings that look like playing cards. picked out my dress but havent bought it yet. and decided on what to do before the baseball game tomorrow. thenwe went to walmart and osco for school stuff. then came home with claire and watched king of the hill, me myself and irene and moulin rouge. and we ate nacho dip and drank ceram soda. which means NIGHTMARES TONIGHT. lol. then walked to the gas station and made a new language. and bought mt dew. bcuz she WAS gonna stay the night. well, im excited for tomorrow. but i gotta pay my dad back with the 40 bucks from my mom. shes gonna give me cash on saturday when she comes to pick mike up. i cant wait to see everyone in des moines. and to ahve fun. and to drive home. and the hoobastank concert. and gatorfest. and SCHOOL! OMGYAY! lol. right or left? is one gay? idk. does it matter? uh oh. OMG I CANT WAIT. im gonna go read now and such, so ttyl.

-Brittni

p.s. derek, dont ever mention that convo again ok? bcuz im trying to get over you and that made a lot fucking harder.

I love 78

i wish i was a pot smoking, acid dropping, hobbit reading groove child.
aka a zeppelin fan.
and im glad im not a jock.
aka a who fan.

HAHAHAAHHAHA!

Dearest Phil:

Dear Phil:


EM YEU AHN


-Brittni

Institute's Bullet-Proof Skin

yay! x10! lol. i changed the look of my xanga. and i watched Who Framed Roger Rabbit last night. and some old cartoons trying to find my old puff the magic dragon tape where he sings about the upside down cake. not a single human i know remembers that movie, but i do. and im not gonna give up. the bestestest birthday gift will be that tape. new or old. not much happened yesterday. going shopping today. walmart for school supplies, then kohls and the mall for clothes and hopefully a homecoming dress. yay? yay. then phil can buy his shirt, pants and tie. omg, maybe ill do a bright green dress since my hair is red.....atleast, until my hair grows out like jessica rabbits. im gonna look like her for my sr prom. but, i gotta shower now bcuz we're leaving at 11, and it takes me an hour to get ready. what time is it? 1020. fuck.
loves!

-B

new obsession! fucker. this song:
Cold to disappear but
I missed you more these days
And all these tatooed angels
Have brought me back today


I'm a wasted boy, empty master plan
Been stuck inside this lonely room again
You get paranoid, see vultures circling
Want to sleep with them down comes the final curtain
Until, you come, into your soul again
We'll be the worst of best friends
Does it feel like Christmas in Hollywood?
Does it feel like we're ever going to make it home?

Burn, baby burn
Strung out on a wire
Heart in a cage
You’re so full of desire
You need, fast hands
To deal with all the liars
So don’t burn baby burn baby burn

It’s a waste of joy, I can hardly stand
Been looking for the ramp for my escape
And of animals, so close to perfect
They're the only ones who seem to know their heart
Does it feel like Christmas in Hollywood?
Does it feel like we could ever come undone?

Burn, baby burn
Strung out on a wire
Heart in a cage
You’re so full of desire
You need, fast hands
To deal with all the liars
Bullet-proof skin to keep you alive
Burn, baby burn
Strung out on a wire
So don’t burn baby burn baby burn

I can't hold you, I can't hold you, I can't hold you
To lose you is to never love again
To lose you is to never love again
To lose you is to never love again
To lose you...

Burn, baby burn
Strung out on a wire
Heart in a cage
You’re so full of desire
You need, fast hands
To deal with all the liars
Bullet-proof skin to keep you alive
Burn, baby burn
Strung out on a wire
So don’t burn baby burn baby burn

I can't hold you, I can't hold you
I can't hold you, I can't hold you

Photos

^^i look like such a slut^^

Derek

babe, im sorry. like you know, i know how it feels to have someone you cherish mentally and physically share the information with you that they enjoy the company of the same/opposite sex. it hurts to love someone you can never have. im sorry you have to go thru it. i love you tho, no matter what! no matter what happens, how you feel or who you love. i promise.
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i feel so bad for him, but, im glad he understands me more now.
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i had a good day. went to amigos at 3, gas station by 430, fountain for a cigarette, my house by 530 or so. monicas around later 6 something. we had to stop by claires for her camera, so stopped around lombard, well, while me trying to get in the trunk to hide, her dad drove by, so we jumped in the car and hid. lol. then, we got to cabelas and calire and i rode in the back and drove past her house, they dropped me off and picked me up after she got it. got back to mons and came back to claires for money and we got gas, went to walmart for el pop and el whipped cream and spent the next few hours taking photos. lol.
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when in the trunk, it was so dark and close. it was hard to breath, and it was just so, idk, closed in that i got nervous. when mon used the brake a light came on and helped a little. i held claires hand and prayed we didnt get in a wreck. once we were done i was happy i did it, but i would have given up when alone. lol. im so retarded.
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while at my house, claire out my white bra on her head and called it her double yamaka. lol.
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im focusing on the good of today
bcuz i love derek
and im depressed for him.
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i<3th darth made a good point.....HOW THE FUCK CAN U HAVE A DEATHSTAR, LIGHTSABERS, AND GIANT SHIPS......and no ultrasound machine to know she has twins? lmao.
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bedtime.
photos tomorrow.

Loves <3
Brittni

Dies Irae

*the last two lines, if pronounced right, will remind you of a movie....in ancient england*

the day of wrath
Dies irae, dies illa
solvet saeclum in favilla,
teste David cum Sybilla.

Quantus tremor est futurus,
quando judex est venturus,
cuncta stricte discussurus.

Tuba mirum spargens sonum
per sepulchra regionum,
coget omnes ante thronum.

Mors stupebit et natura,
cum resurget creatura,
judicanti responsura.

Liber scriptus proferetur,
in quo totum continetur,
unde mundus judicetur.

Judex ergo cum sedebit,
quidquid latet apparebit,
nil inultum remanebit.

Quid sum miser tunc dicturus?
Quem patronum rogaturus,
cum vix justus sit securus?

Rex tremendae majestatis,
qui salvandos salvas gratis,
salva me, fons pietatis.

Recordare Jesu pie,
quod sum causa tuae viae,
ne me perdas illa die.

Quaerens me sedisti lassus,
redemisti crucem passus,
tantus labor non sit cassus.

Juste judex ultionis,
donum fac remissionis
ante diem rationis.

Ingemisco tanquam reus,
culpa rubet vultus meus,
supplicanti parce, Deus.

Qui Mariam absolvisti,
et latronem exaudisti,
mihi quoque spem dedisti.

Preces meae non sunt dignae,
sed tu, bonus, fac benigne,
ne perenni cremer igne.

Inter oves locum praesta,
et ab hoedis me sequestra,
statuens in parte dextra.

Confutatis maledictis,
flammis acribus addictis,
voca me cum benedictis.

Oro supplex et acclinis,
cor contritum quasi cinis,
gere curam mei finis.

Lacrimosa dies illa,
qua resurget ex favilla

judicandus homo reus -
Huic ergo parce, Deus.

Pie Jesu Domine,
dona eis requiem.

Amen.

finish

isaiha never finished the questionaire so here's the rest:

DO YOU EVER

50. SIT BY THE PHONE WAITING FOR A PHONE CALL ALL NIGHT: phil....went to the mall. remember phil?
51. SAVE AOL CONVERSATIONS: umm, yeah, i did once to prove to someone that reece charlebois was fucking with me.
52. SAVE E-MAILS: from phil, and matt
53. WISH YOU WERE SOMEONE ELSE: always........bianca solderini <3
54. WISH YOU WERE A MEMBER OF THE OPPOSITE SEX: of course, dont all girls sometimes?
55. CRIED BECAUSE OF SOMEONE'S MEAN WORDS: i think i always do.

BEST

56. COLOGNE: curve *mm, sex*
57. PERFUME: anything calgon, but i prefer Hawaiian Ginger
58. KISS: ive had two. bcuz they were so different. but, my fave kiss ever was on the day before halloween of 2004
59. ROMANTIC MEMORY: sadly, when callen took me out for dinner and a movie. i felt like a spoiled princess.
60. MOST RECENT BEST ADVICE GIVEN TO YOU: Loyalty and Patiance with those you love *mm, tarot cards*

HAVE YOU:

61. Fallen for your best friend?: shit. yeah, but, hes gay and i have someone else so i try to forget that hes a guy
62. Made out w/ JUST a friend?: stina.....before we dated, and emily
63. Been rejected?: trevor
64. Been in love?: Matt S and Phil, but, matt was, well, idk, was more puppy love
65. Been in lust?: ahhhh, fuck, i hate admitting it, but, phil before we dated bcuz i was looking for a fuck buddy and not a bf.
66. Used someone?: yes.....
67. Been used?: what the fuck would anyone use ME for???
68. Cheated on someone?: uh huh. who hasnt?
69. Been cheated on?: twice as many times as ive cheated
70. Been kissed?: duh.
71. Done something you regret?: way too many times

WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON..

72. You touched?: daddy
73. You talked to?: trevor b
74. You hugged?: daddy
75. You instant messaged?: trevor
76. You kissed?: phil
77. You had sex with?: phil
78. You yelled at?: monica
79. You laughed with?: phil
80. Who broke your heart?: trevor b
81. Who told you they loved you: phil

DO YOU..

82. Color your hair? FUCK YEAH
83. Have tattoos?: not yet
84. Have piercings? ears....soon an eyebrow....YAY
85. Have a girlfriend? nope
86. Own a webcam? yessir
88. Ever get off the damn computer? at 10:30 pm
89. Feature do you find the most attractive on others? Eyes and hair
90. Would you vote for a woman candidate for president?: pamela anderson. lol.
91. Would you marry for money?: if i had to to help my kids survive...but only for that reason
92. Have you had braces?: i looked so nerdy with braces
93. Do you pluck your eyebrows?: DUH.
94. Do you like hairy backs?: get a wax chewbacca
95. Could you live without a computer?: nu uh
96. Do you use ICQ, AOL Buddy list etc...?: aol, msn
97. If so, how many people are on your list(s)?: aol = 212/ msn = 153
98. If you could live in any past, where would it be?: venice. ancient rome maybe? most likely ancient england.....during queen elizabeth's reign. yeah.
99. Do you wear shoes in the house or take them off?: housey housey
100. What is your favorite fruit?: apples? peaches? no.....yeah. idk.
101. Do you eat wheat bread or white?:almost any
102. What is your favorite place to visit?: london
103. What is the last movie you saw: STAR WARS 3 MUTHA FUCKA
105. Are you photogenic? of course....which makes me wonder why ppl dont follow me with cameras :(
106. Do you dream in color or black and white?: really really vivid colors
107. Are you wearing fingernail polish?: yeah, it wont come off
108. Is it chipped or fresh?: CHIPPED
109. Do you have any dimples?: nope
101. Do you remember being born? fuck that, i cant remember my own name
111. Why do you take surveys?: boredom fucker
112. Do you drink alcohol? sometimes, rarely
113. Did you like or do you love high school?: i fucking love high school!
115. Who do you want to kiss?: phil, derek, jacoby shaddux
116. Do you like sunrises or sunsets the most?: sunsets, bcuz they're at night, and sunsets lead to massages, and they lead on to something else
117. Do you want to live to be 100?: no. kill me when i turn 40
118. Are flat stomachs important?: no. i dont like them. they look fake, plastic, underfed, and inhuman. even venus had chub, and ill post a picture to prove it. she makes me feel so pretty.
119. Do you or have you played with a ouija board?: No
120. Are you loyal?: yes, and im glad
121. Are you tolerant of other peoples beliefs?: very.just dont shove them down my throat
122. When you watch movies at home, do you like the lights on or off?: off
123. Do you have nightmares frequently?: yes, alot lately
124. Do you like your nose?: its crooked, but yes
125. Do you think you can draw well?: fairly
129. Do you write poetry?: alot. im good at it
130. Do you snore?: no
131. Do you sleep more on your back, front, or sides: sides, almsot always
132. Dog/Cat: i prefer cats, have one dog, two cats
136. Which hurts the most, physical or emotional pain?: emotional, you cant control it. physical pain is nice
139. Do you prefer a piano or a violin?: violin, more moods
141. Do you know someone who has cancer?: umm, had. my papa. and an aunt of mine, and mamo. i think amelia did
142. Do you like to argue?: very much so
146. Do you have a middle name? What is it?: Linn
147. Are you basically a happy person?: umm, when im not bored, yes, i think.
148. Are you tired?: very
149. Did you drink anything with caffeine in it today? coffe, french vanilla
150. Have you ever met anyone off the internet?: DEREK
151. How many phones do you have in your house?: 4
152. How long is your hair?: shoulders
153. Do you get along with your parents?: dad, yes sometimes, mom, i pretend to
154. What color eyes do you prefer?: green. ive loved green since i was 10....maybe younger. or BRIGHT blue. anything except uber-dark brown or bluegrey like mine
156. Were you named after anyone?: my dad said britney fox, a band.
157. Do you wish on stars?: nope
159. When did you last cry?: last night....marius died
162. Who do you admire: jacoby shaddux, beyonce, ewan mcgregor and anne rice
166. What is your most embarrassing CD?: billy gilman
167. If you were another person, would you be friends with yourself?: hell no. im one stupid bitch
168. Are you a daredevil?: NO SHIT
169. Have you ever told a secret you swore not to tell?: yuppers, all the time.
171. Do looks matter?: yes. very much so. which is why i ahve PHIL.
172. Have you ever misused a word and it sounded absolutely stupid? yessir
173. Do you think there is a pot of gold at the end of the rainbow?: yes....damn leprechauns
175. Are you trendy?: nope
176. How do you release anger?: *hangs head* self mutilation
179. What was your favorite toy as a child?: my blanket. and my books
180. What class in school do you think is totally useless?: us history....FUCK THE UNITED STATES
181. Do you like sappy love songs?: yes
182. Have you ever been on radio or television?: tv.....um, yeah, my first day of 9th grade
183. Do you have a journal?: blogs
184. Do you use sarcasm a lot?: no shit.

lmao.
fun?
i know.
today? amigos.
tomorrow? wolrds of fun
thursday? shopping and bowling
friday? shopping adn omaha
saturday? des moines and hoobastank
sunday? gatorfest
monday.....SHIT
tuesday.....SCHOOL! im excited.

here's venus. look at the whole picture first....tell me shes not beautiful. she was considered italy's mold for the beautiful. if you looked like her, you were an angel, a cherub, a GODDESS! and my tummy is the same XD i always thought my tummy was bad, but she makes me feel beautiful and eternal. FUCK YOU.

loves to you all.!

<3 Brittni

my new nickname? Bianca.

stupid girls

you wanna know my biggest, most hated pet peeve?

when girls say that guys are immature and stupid. they're not. not all of them. they're just boys. and you girls, the girls that shop juciy/hollister/ae/a&f/buckle or w/e the hell else forces you to spend 50 bucks on a piece of string for a shirt, the stuck up, spoiled little brats who think they're hot shit, guys arent all corvette-driving, rich, suit'n'tie wearing gentlemen. they're boys. highschool boys. they act weird bcuz they like you or dont like you. that sorry excuse for a show called laguna beach brought this up....this girl dumped her bf steven or something and they met up at the beach and he acted weird around her BCUZ HE STILL LIKES HER and she drove away telling her friend on her phone that boys were stupid and immature. no, hes not. hes just nervous and confused bcuz he still likes you and you dumped him for lord knows what reason. girls make guys confused my being bitchy, rude, and confusing. girls send mixed signals and hints and confuse guys, and when guys are confused, girls say the guys are immature. WTF? you girls that do that to boys, and confuse them and play too-hard-to-get and get mad about it should take a shot in the head bcuz you are fucking retarded. you make men think of all girls as stupid, confusing, stuck up brats. grow up, gain some independance, and learn to talk to boys in the language men understand ____STRAIGHT FORWARD___ ok? then you will not allowd to call the majority of men immature and stupid, only the retarded cheaters and liars.

i think stupid girls should grow up and take responsibility for their insecurity in relationships and STOP WATCHING LAGUNA BEACH. i could feel my IQ dropping with every minute i continued watching it.

kthnxbye

Dog

my dog i snoring
here's what i hear:

soft breath in
pause
soft breath in
pause
SNORE
soft breath in
GRUNT
soft breath in
pause
SNOOOOOOOOORE

Astrology

hahahaha. my zodiac hp character? MOLLY WEASLEY. wtf? whats even more hilarious......phil's is PROFESSOR POMONA SPROUT. lmao. silly billy nilly. dont ask. good thing tho, scorpios have three different symbols to choose from to represent them. Scorpions, somethign else, and the Phoenix!!!!! i think id prefer a phoenix then a scorpion. this really makes me want to start playing with my tarot cards again. i was thinking about asking my mom to look up phil and i for idk, future referance, but idk if she still fucks around with that shit anymore.
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car shopping TOMORROW. mikes got dentist today and doctors tomorrow. and dads gotta get a haircut and same with dog. blech. school shopping idk when. nobody knows anything until 5 mins before. so im gonna wake up uberearly the next few days so i can get ready, cuz tomorrow is car, and idk when we're going into omaha but dad said i can get some turkish delight if the world market has some. FUCKING YES. i cant wait until saturday!

DESMOINES WITH PHIL! sweeeeet. lmao.

heres what boredom does to you:
1. Kissed your cousin: cheek
2. Ran away: um, kinda
3. Pictured your crush naked: yes!
4. Actually seen your crush naked: hell yeah
5. Broken someone's heart: too many times
6. Been in love: phil
7. Cried when someone died: tyler
8. Wanted someone you knew you couldn't have: hes gay
9. Broken a bone: nope
10. Drank alcohol: yes
11. Lied: yuppers
12. Cried in school: tyler

WHICH IS BETTER

13. COKE OR PEPSI: Pepsi
14. SPRITE OR 7UP: 7up
15. GIRLS OR GUYS: guys
16. FLOWERS OR CANDY: both....lol, you cant give one without the other
17. SCRUFF OR CLEAN SHAVEN: i like enough scruff to feel it when i kiss him, but nothing like johnny depp lol.
18. LOUD OR QUIET: loud
19. BLONDES OR BRUNETTES: black
20. BITCHY OR SLUTTY: ummmm, well, im a bitch. i like bitchy girls bcuz i think slutty girls never got love from their dads so they seek for male attention and distract our once-loyal boyfriends/husbands and hurt us. still, men should keep it in their pants around easy sluts
21. TALL OR SHORT: tall guys....but not giant
22. PANTS OR SHORTS: pants!

WITH THE OPPOSITE SEX

23. WHAT DO YOU NOTICE FIRST: hair.....then eyes
24. LAST PERSON YOU SLOW DANCED WITH: umm, phil, to finding nemo
25. WORST THING TO SAY: we're over

THE LAST TIME

26. SHOWERED: yesterday
27. HAD SEX: umm........im suposed to remember? shit, forever ago.
28. HAD A GREAT TIME WITH THE OPPOSITE SEX: last night, rain, star wars, lattes. sexually, idk.

WHAT IS

29. YOUR GOOD LUCK CHARM:my yellow teddy bear.....which i have to give back
30. PERSON YOU HATE MOST: i hate certain kinds of ppl, the kind of ppl who tell you they want to make EVERYONE else happy but not themselves. and then instead of making u smile bcuz they like you, they do it as a challenge.
31. THE BEST THING THAT HAS HAPPENED TO YOU TODAY: woke up....i had a nightmare

FAVORITES

32. COLOR: neon pink
33. MOVIE: star wars 3
34. BOOK: hp6
35. SUBJECT IN SCHOOL: french/creative writing
36. JUICE: peach-mango
37. CARS: 03 pontiac grand am GT in white
38. ICE CREAM: lime sherbet
39. HOLIDAY: thanksgiving/xmas/easter
40. SEASON: fall, bday, the leaves, chilly, school, thanksgiving, 1 year
41. BREAKFAST FOOD: waffles
42. PLACE TO GO WITH YOUR HUNNY: the park

WHO

43. MAKES YOU LAUGH THE MOST: claire
44. MAKES YOU SMILE: phil, claire, derek
45. GIVES YOU A FUNNY FEELING WHEN YOU SEE THEM: phil
46. HAS A CRUSH ON YOU: kyle m? nic s? nate p? mike says andy still likes me. td. dylan, lmao. dalton, rick. dylan a prolly. lmao. pius kids....hahaha
47. YOU HAVE A CRUSH ON: phil, derek
48. CAN MAKE YOU FEEL BETTER NO MATTER WHAT: phil, unless its bcuz of him, then coffee lol
49. WHO HAS IT EASIER, GUYS OR GIRLS: Guys

Birthday

i saw star wars with phil tonight. 5th time for me. 3rd time with him. and his 3rd time. yay. and it was pouring afterwards so we made out in the raina dn got soaked. and his mom took us to starbucks and my dad picked me up and i came home with a nice, warm, vanilla latte in my hands. YUM. phil spoiled me tonight. and i totally loved the summer thunderstorm.
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no vaca this week. just haircuts for dad and the dog, mike's physical, and dentist appointment. AND CAR SHOPPING. yes. maybe worlds of fun. or later on this fall we go to denver, and i get to see tina and we see an avs game. yayayayayay!
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i figured id make a birthday list. but i cant post my list of great ideas for myself for the 1 year so ill post that secretly. hahahahaha!
listy listy listy:
ludo cd *new one*
hot hot heat's elevator
alkaline trio
finch
postal service
death cab for cutie
^ cds. any of them i dont really care
starbucks
40Y.O.Virgin if its on dvd
star wars 3 dvd
dessert lotion/spray
Victoria's Secret Garden spray in Love Spell
velvet goldmine on dvd *ebay*
Custom Star Wars M&Ms *red and grey* that say Jedi Knight lmao.
dark chocolate
ANYTHING FROM CADBURY......its expensive i think bcuz its from england.
chocolate covered turkish delight.......yum
a car
candles
pictures of me and phil. lol



i <3 http://www.thebritishshoppe.com


LOVES

grr

im not gorgeous
beautiful
extraordinary
nope. none of those.
and i would give anything
for someone
to hold me real tight
and tell me im gorgeous
beautiful
extraordinary
saint-like
ethereal
angelic.
i want someone
who will dream of me
and obsess over me
and act as if i was too good for them.

but then id be dating a liar.
too bad honety makes for a good relationship.
im stuck,
either ugly and happy
or pretty and lonely.
i want

a Prince Charming.
not the shrek version
a real one.
and he has to live up to his name.

i want someone to smother me in kisses
and for them to tell me
they adore me.

maybe i have to date callen again? ew.
but he did that. once.



didnt care that you left and abondoned me, what hurts more, is that i would still die for you

tell me who this is!

Baby I can't stop
My mind from slipping
Every six seconds or less
The preoccupation with the opposite sex
And you're the one I blame
For making me go missing
I think of you and drift away
Fourteen thousand times a day

Victoria's Secret I've been keepin'
And its getting harder all the time
I can't keep it undercover
I need your soft lips kissing mine

Chorus:
Every six seconds
My body starts begging
Your sweet thing is wreckin' me
Until you give me some
Ten times a minute
Six hundred times an hour
Another cold shower
Until you give me some (Until you give me some)

I picture you
In red Mac lipstick
Smudgin' all over me
Leavin' a mark on my fantasy
Or swimming in water
Wearing nothing but moonlight
Both of us soaking wet
Splash
Halfway to the towel
That's as far as we get

Victoria's Secret I've been keepin'
And its getting harder all the time
I can't keep it undercover
I need your soft lips kissing mine

Chorus

Every six seconds
My body starts begging
Your sweet thing is messin’ me
Until you give me some
Ten times a minute
Six hundred times an hour
Girl you got the power
Until you give me some

Thoughts of you keep swimming through my veins
Baby night and day and I
Cannot concentrate on anything
But this urge I have inside

Every six seconds
Every six seconds
Until you give me some
Every six seconds
Every six seconds
Until you give me some

Chorus

Every six seconds
My body starts begging
Your sweet thing is wrecking me
Until you give me some
Ten times a minute
Six hundred times an hour
Girl you got the power
Until you give me some

Every six seconds


NAME THIS BAND.......I DARE YOU.

Sigh

you know.....
i really feel for you
and i wish you didnt think like you do
and give me a chance
i can love you like they do.
like the rest of the world.
but i sit here, night after night
looking at your picture,
wishing you were mine.
i know you see me as something untouchable,
but i can be your every dream.
but i still lay my tears on my pillow
night after night
for you.
and every tear represents a prayer,
for you.
but i guess all in all,
the only way to prove i love you more
is to make sure you're always happy
no matter who they are.
and i remember
when i first planned to tell you
but you kicked me in the chest.
ive never hurt like this before,
sometimes, other guys, are just stand ins.
and i compare them to you.
i remember how much i cried after seeing you.
i cried for so many different reasons,
i cried the whole way home.
and i always felt you held a special place for me
but day after day, there's this person and that
this conversation
and these people
and then you come to me.
i wish you didnt think the way you do
you could have so much more.
but ill spend my nights
crying prayers
and you can never know what you could have had.
and the stars will know our secrets,
and i will tell them to turn their backs on it.
and i bet you've never wondered how it is
you live life my way!
youve never questioned what you think you know
which makes me feel so inadiquate
that you cant even consider.
so youll continue to hurt me
night after night
and ill cry secretly,
and no one wil ever know.
just as long as you're happy,
you know my love will show.

-me

LNS

i got my locker! i got my locker! YAY! locker 1145D. im downstairs and closer to lunch, fucker! hahahaha. my pics better be cute. and i got french 3! YAYAYAYAYAY! but monica threw a hissy fit and like, made me locker with angel instead of claire. dont get me wrong, i love angel, but claire.....come on, its CLAIRE. lol. and my locker is right by jerzy's. lmao. atleast his fanclub doesnt stalk his locker. but that also means my locker is prone to pencilled insults. lol. and i saw bill! the kirby look-alike from SD. lmao. yeehaw. he hunts. and, umm, yay! lol.

rick said hed take claire to pius's homecoming......SWEET! yayness x10.

claire's dad thinks shes a satan worshiper! HAHAHAHA!

Movies to see:
march of the penguins
valiant
transporter 2
corpse bride
40 year old virgin

g2g now........ive got a claire to hang out with and piza cheetos to eat. Y to the U to the M!

Brittni

God Damnit

im so sick of this
fuck this shit

fuck mike
fuck dylan
and
fuck phil.

im sick of the drama, everyone talking shit about each other, everyone whining and everyone's complaining.

i wish i was alone, in a cozy bed, in the middle of winter, with a currently unread hp book, a bottomless cup of very-vanilla coffee and an endless feast of fishsticks, yorkshire puddings, turkey, green bean casserole, chinese food, amigos, bacon cheeseburgers and melon bowls. oh, and id like some prozac too. yeah. thats the good life.

but in reality......CANT EVERYONE BE FUCKING NICE TO EACH OTHER. HMMM? OR TRY TO KEEP OTHERS FROM BEIGN MEAN TO THE UBER SENSITIVE? maybe?

shit. i want someone to cry to, who'll cradle me as if i were 3 and tell me its all ok. i think my dad did that when my mom left. i jsut dotn remember it.

i want someone who will focus on me for once

-me

ronery

I'm so ronery. So ronery. So
ronery and sadry arone. Dere's
no one, just me onry, sitting on
my rittle throne.


I wook rearry hard and make up
great plans. But nobody
listens, no one understands...
Seems that no one takes me
SER-RI-ROUS-REEEEEEEEE...
And so... I'm rone-ry... A rittle
rone-ry... Poor rittle me.

Pain

pain sucks. cramps suck. ive got menstrual cramps like hell and my fucking retarded dad never refilled our stock of ibuprofen. HOW THE FUCK DOES SOMEONE FORGOT TO BUY MOER IBUPROFEN?!!?! omg it hurts. im practically writhing in pain. omg im dying.
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the words you scribbled on the words with hte loss of friends you didnt ahve.
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im suposed to see phil today. idk if i will. bcuz all ill do is sit there and cry. and ill have to clean my room while in amazing pain. not to mention my fucking leg that hurts like a fucking bitch and wont let me walk right. i hate pmsing. im gonna cry. i miss phil. right now, i want a bath, a mcdonalds bigntasty, and to fall asleep next to phil. and some vicadin. a major painkiller would be nice right now.
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good eye sniper.
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team america si the most retarded, fucked up, waste of time in the fucking world. there's ONE good song and thats only bcuz bryan mosher would sing it to me on the bus.
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-brittni

PHOTOS NIGGAS!

HERES THE PHOTOS YOU WETBACKS!
1)phil with eyeliner *talk aboutt he hottest thing vie ever fucking seen. all we need is a lip piercing*
2)breaking benjamin.
3)unwritten law.

River Riot 05

here goes my entire count on the greatest day of my young life:
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phils wakes me up at 8:30. i ended up falling asleep at 11 something and woke up at 1, ate and got ready. left. without my tennishsoes. we get into nana's car. and spend an hour trying to park and get in. we get in and pick a spot. and head down once danko jones is done and get this spot on the railings to the side of the stage. and we get a few pictures, and have a good time. then, phil goes and gets my other camera...and we push our way towards teh front. and breaking benjamin comes on and we spent our time rocking out, taking pictures, screaming and being squished and pushed by tons of sweaty people. i dont know how many times some slutty girl kicked me in the head. eventually, i couldnt breathe, and i was gonna pass out so we left and went potty and got slushies. breaking benjamin was ok. but, we got to the railings for papa roach but i was stuck behind some slut who was fucking the back of her bf's head. but i got lots of photos. and jacoby, omfg, he came so close to me and some slut pushed me outta the way! I WAS SO CLOSE TO JACOBY SHADDIX!!!!!! CLOSE ENOUGH TO TOUCH HIM! THE HOTTEST ROCKSTAR EVER! aaaahhhhhhhhhh! NO FUCKING WAY!
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best part of my night? sitting at teh gas station waiting for my dad to get money and phil gave me the CUTEST ring. omg. im sooooo happy.
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im sharing lockers with claire this year......or else someone is going down.
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and hoobastank will be in lincoln at teh state fair for ''free'' but you have to pay to get into the park. which means, i shove cameras in phils pockets, adn we enter the building an hour early to get a better spot and we will never leave till the end of the show. or else someone, will go down. bitch.

I want out

i want out
i want to live in erie.
away from fucking everything.
not in geneseo, not in lincoln.
i want away......
away from the child,
the liar,
the fag,
the druggie,
the reard,
the drunk,
the dog,
away from you.
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ok, honestly, this pisses me off.
you KNEW i wanted it as black as i could get it..... REMEMBER?
FOURTH OF FUCKING JULY!
but brown black? jsut dye it dark brown for christ's sake!
and u said you dont wanna look like a poser.
YOU'RE 15!!! FIFTEEN!
i havent called someone a poser since i was 14.
maybe all pius kids are this immature.
if a fifteen year old is gonna call u a poser,
and thats gonna keep you from doing something you want to
you're FUCKING STUPID!

there's a point in life when you cant care THAT much about your peer's opinions of you.

sometimes, i think you're 10.
that's my confession for the day.

yeah, i can be a bitch.
dont like it?
dump me.
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i want out till summer ends.
please.
or someone, put me in a fucking coma!


im begging you. im beggin you to be my escape.

Airport and Dye

i almost missed my flight to omaha from chicago. kb's racist and told me not to talk to anyone, especially niggers. lol. it was FILLED WITH NIGGERS. and i had to run thru the airport with my shoes half off. got back, drove nana to work, helped her out adn bought 4 cds for 5 bucks. drove us to old chicago. everyone thinks i look like my mom. drove to jason's new house. drove to nanas. stopped at walmart in council blufs on the way and finally got some dark chocolate and instant cappacino. went there, talked to phil and ian. and fell asleep on the couch, lounged around there this morning and dad drove home, and bought stuff, came home and ive beend ying my hair ever since.
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oh yeah, and daddy bought me an mp3 player! I WUV HIM!!!! and i figured out how to fuck with iTunes files. HA FUCKING HA.
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i learned the coolest word at dinner yesterday! TOOTY-FUCKING-FRUITY! lmao.
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well, here's some pics.

Hair

got my hair did today. flippin yes.
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got to talk to phil.
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i get to go to river riot.
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i got a moolatte after my hair got did.
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claire and i argued about the song from Holes.
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i took pictures.
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i can take disposable camers into river riot.
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my mom and i connected. ALOT.
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and i got a new banana split ligloss.
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sad thing is, ians in geneseo now. and mom said we could go back before i left, and now she says no. which means i cant say goodbye. stupid fucker. im so angry. i cried when she said i couldnt go back. sigh.
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tomorrow, moms buying me some cubs stuff, some mcdonalds, some dr pepper and some candy for my flight. and i get to take the oh-so-delecious pizza cheetos. yay. maybe get my nails done tomorrow? yay? or no? i think YAY! well, i want a popcicle before bed so.......ngiht everyone. update when i get to nanas.
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MY NEW HAIR-DO!!!! :

Finch

"Letters To You"

Can't you see that i wanna be there with open arms
It's empty tonight and i'm all alone
Get me through this one

Do you notice i'm gone?
Where do you run to so far away?

I want you to know that I miss you I miss you so
I want you to know that I miss you I miss you so

I'm writing again these letters to you aren't much, I know
But i'm not sleeping and you're not here
The thought stops my heart

Do you notice i'm gone?
Where do you run to so far away?

I want you to know that I miss you I miss you so [x4]
No more looking i've found home

I want you to know that I miss you I miss you so [x4]

I'm gone away
I'm gone away
_________...__________
fought with ian last night. but everythings ok. and im glad him and i got that into the open.
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phil hasnt emailed me back yet so idk if hes going to river riot with me or not. which pisses me off.
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haircut today. im excited. idk how ill do my bangs tho. :( oh well. i gotta get ready now. update more later.
Loves

<3 Brittni

Update

went to toris during the day monday, for the visitation so mike and i werent stuck here. hung out with jordyn. eventually walked to cam's. he wasnt home. then we rested and ended up riding our bikes to cams, not home, so we stopped by west's house. fun? lol. hung out with him. rode the bikes around and ended up with ian. went to the park till 10. went back. ***edit for later*** went to bed at 5. woke up at 11. FINALLY MET MR CAM H!!! XD and it was quite fun. hes a total sweetheart. he was blushing too, when his mom talked about his doll from when he was a baby. i left. took a nap. mom picked me up. i came back here. and then victoria showed up. we had dinner at kb's parent's house. came back and i dont remember the rest of that day. today we cleaned and my luggage arrived. and we went to sams and walmart. saw uncle gary at sams. it was fun. now rylee's here. and she wants on the comp which means i get bitched at for being on it. WTF? and ians finally online.
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i got tickets to RIVER RIOT 05! and phils suposed to go. my nana is picking me up and driving us back. im sooo excited. but the sad thing is, in order to see the show, i have to fucking stay the night at my nanas on friday and see my uncle jason. >:|
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well, heres some pics. cam's in green. ians in blue. west is in grey. jord is blonde and toria's a red head.
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loves
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derek!!!!

YOU FIX MY BLOG THIS INSTANT! NOW!

update after i swim with rylee.

Pissed

here's my day:
day of funeral, everyone's sad and depressed
i was up late last night
my mom got mad at me for taking her camera to jord's
my mom's get a problem with my 'attitude'
my schedule is all sorts of fucked up
i now can NOT drive toh illsdale for pizza bcuz my p.o.s. mom and her bf think itd be better for me to go to kb's parents house after the funeral of a man ive met ONCE.
which means i get to walk around feeling AWKWARD!
and phil hasnt emailed me
ians grounded
and cams not online.

fuck you all.


pictures when my mom decides to be human/nice and send them to me.

Chicago

I woke up yesterday at 6 with my alarm going BEEP BEEP BEEP! and acctually said 'alyssa, turn off the radio.' lmao. got up, got ready. i finally git money on my card, and bought some songs but the cd never got burned. left. arrived in omaha. the fucking TSA had to search my shit! >:| left and got into the terminal. i had to take off my jacket, belt and shoes before walking through the metal detector thing. i might as well have gotten naked! can u imagine if you had your clit pierced? youd walk through BEEP and then they'd get that metal dector stick and see youve got metal in ur crouch and have to take you to a seprate room. lmao. but then we waited for half an hour, boarded and sat through it. blah blah blah. lol. i just listened to music. we arrive in chicago.....see mom, and walk away. and then waited a fucking hour for our bags to arrive.....they never did. so we filed a claim. left. and drove to wrigley field. i didnt get any pictures of my own bcuz my camera was in my suitcase. but mom did. it was awesome! AND THERE WAS A FUCKING GAME GOING ON! AND I COULDNT GO! i was so sad when mom said no. they were playing the diamonbacks. nana would have been so jealous. lol. we drove to erie....which seemed to take HOURS. get here, chill. then we decide to go to aunt tori's and drop off a freezer so i can see jess. then we come home and grandpa butch and kathryn come over and mom makes cheeseburgers. yum. and then i came in here and tried to do my flickr-blogger-xanga shit and couldnt so im doing it now.
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i gotta go soon tho cuz i think im driving with mom to the grocery store bcuz im super hungry and there's no food in here.
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i just wish i had my suitcase.....i wanna wear my ACDC shirt.
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loves <3 Brittni
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here's the pics OF yesterday:
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